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A Beautiful Lie

~Is all the we see or seem, but a dream within a dream?

I'm on an indefinite hiatus from, well, kinda pretty much everything - that includes my LJ. For now I'm leaving it up and intact, though I won't be around to answer comments or PM's.


This is my special-super-secret site.
Yeah, I'm a dork, but if you are reading my profile, you're gonna' realize that sooner or later. May as well be sooner.

I originally joined here just to see stuff I couldn't otherwise, then it became my place to indulge in all that is 'Supernatural' - kind of like a kitten rolling in catnip - and now that I'm writing fanfic, it's where I'll share that too.

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"A lot of life is dealing with your curse, dealing with the cards you were given that aren't so nice. Does it make you into a monster, or can you temper it in some way, or accept it
and go in some other direction?"
~~~Wes Craven

Born in the '70's, and older than I care to admit, I'm not entirely certain how the bloody hell I got this old. I really think I'm still 29.
I'm somewhat of a mystery, even to myself. Far too curious for my own good, and far too snarky for the good of others. But my heart is kind...often to a fault, and my soul is old & wise. It knows far more than my brain does.

I spend an excessive amount of time on-line, and not nearly enough working on my writing (other than fic), reading (other than fic)....or cleaning, or exercising, or you know - having a LIFE!

Ahh, and about that bewildering concept known as "Life"...I'm not all that great at it. I keep trying, but there seems to be some substantial fact in a peculiar notion that people can be plagued by "inner-demons". Perhaps I need the Winchester Boys to read me a little Latin bedtime story. *wink*
Truly I have the most incredible, caring, and worthwhile intentions - my follow-through however...sucketh.

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Anyway, this place is kind of my escape when I need to take a load off.


Some stuff I share here is personal, very little is private. Everything private in my life is personal, but not everything personal is private.

I am a card-carrying Pervert. I formerly held Gold, but after sliding down-down-down that slippery slope of The Supernatural Fandom... I've gone Platinum, baby!!!
Trust me, if you're considering reading my fic? This is information you need to know! That being said, I do try to keep stories on this journal at a "highly questionable" level, or below. Anything leaving all "questionability" in the dust will be posted to my future sock. (Yes, you can ask. I might tell.)

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For certain stories and fics (with due, legal "finagling"), my Muse is for hire. Got a prompt you can never get filled? Want a story tailored to your specifications? PM me. (All inquiries remain between you, me, and Muse.)

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So, I can't help but think of a remarkable song by Brian Buckley Band, 'I Am Human'. Moving with its melody, and brilliant in its truth.
"I am human, I am human. I am human, and I will let you down."

If you aren't simply passing through, eventually? I WILL let you down.

For general f-listies, lurkers, and "The Outer Circle": from writing fanfic that squicks you, to never getting around to that plot bunny I promised you I'd let Muse pet. It'll happen. But, I can also guarantee I'll occasionally write a story you'll enjoy enough to add to your mems, once in a blue moon post a Meme to amuse you, and every so often drop by your journal for a bit of banter.

For those I'm closer to, LJ'ers sorted into "The Inner Circle": I will frequently forget your birthdays, fail to follow through with shit in a timely manner - like the procrastination whore I am, and subject you to whiny, rambly, "real life" posts of doom. Though, I'll also do my best to be here when you need a shoulder to cry on, or someone to pull their pom-poms out and cheer you on while you write that epic fic...or struggle to get that new job. I'm a PM or e-mail away from making you laugh, or listening to you vent.

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My journal is Semi-Friends only. I mainly f-lock posts that are of a more personal nature, or if I'm going to rant or have a wank!fest about certain issues.
There are however some of my fics that will be f-locked - at least for now - mostly RPFs, or anything with highly questionable content.
Friend requests are ♥ so don't hesitate to send one. I do have one request though. Call me strange (many do) but if you are friending me out of the blue, I'll be itching to know why. So drop a comment in the "Semi-friends Only" sticky post on my journal, or send me a PM. Even if it's only to say "I'm just friending for the "highly questionable" fic." (in which case, I'll know to friend you back so you can see it), or should it be to alert me that "I think you're weird, and I want to stalk you." (then I REALLY know to friend you back!), I beseech you to satisfy my curiosity.


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Much Appreciation Goes Out to the Following Users:

Layout by gawariel_design *I made changes to the font & replaced the header*

moodtheme by talulababy

Header by crystalsc *At least most of it. I took a little of the header from the layout design, added crystal's header to it, tweaked a little & added my page title*

Wincest Artwork "Consider It Mutual" by vongue

Con Photos of Jensen Ackles by wolfpup2000

Supernatural Animation (above) by ina_ami


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